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[Mar. 25th, 2008|02:20 am] |
This journal and thoughts passed over the years is not who I am. I am not my past, but I am the present, that I choose to live my life by.
So I went back through all of my entries and read them. I've decided that I like who I have become over the past 3 months more then who I have been my whole life. I don't want to return back to any of my old negative habits or thought processing I use to have. Or ways of rationalizing any bullshit or anything that would be lying to myself or others. I didn't like the path my life way taking or the irresponsibly I had directed in my past friendships, relationships, experiences and over all existence. If there is such a thing as transcendence or enlightenment I have certainly felt it while working as a med student at the medal hospital. I understand so much now that I never knew about myself and others. On top of the counseling I started to further my self help and to improve my self in so many ways.
The most important lesson I have learned, which seems very simple when saying it is: If you want to change the way things are, you have to do it your self. Nobody can do it for you. And you have to take responsibility for your life and the actions in it.
Maybe it being stated as an exterior force will help those that need it. "reinforce it."
I hope that everyone I know and meet continues to better them selves and enjoy their life to the fullest possibility. |
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| Blar-ga-de-yarr |
[Dec. 14th, 2006|06:19 am] |
Socks are best worn on ur feet. Thought everyone should know that. They dont work well if you don't.
(Long blink) |
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[Nov. 29th, 2006|11:22 pm] |
Well now... It's been awhile sence I last wrote in this thing. I write alot these days but not in my livejournal, and thank god I had the mind to deleated myspace. As for the things that are new. I'm looking into many positions of the medical field and debating what I really want to do. I know its a bit longer of a path. But I feel it should be worth it. To enjoy what I do for a living, is my goal. So much school. It seem's like to much school. I hate college sometimes. I dislike the wheather almost all the time.
I cant wait till I move away. I can't wait till School is over.
So I'm going to pay off my horrible credit mistakes and deal with this court shit friday. Work some dead end job while in school and look to place's to go. So I can finish my further schooling out of this state. I'm done here once I get my OT certificit. :/ That is of course still awhile away.
~ love you all take it easy. |
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| [I'm eracing myspace thing. ] |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|03:16 am] |
Wow, I'm so tired of myspace and creepy random love notes people post to me in it. I'm so tired of people I met for 10mints asking to be my friend. And I don't feel like taking any of thoughs test's. I like the internet. I'm addicted to it. I play World of Warcraft and check this damn thing often. Not always but at least once a month. Making sure non of you killed your selfs yet. Or something like that. But yeah, myspace is kinda gay at times. Each page with its damn music or what ever makes it more like you. I put raining skulls and made mine look Goth. "As a joke"
That's right, I devoted a myjournal post about myspace. And On that note. Im going to erace that damn thing after I read the last of crap sent to me on it.
I hate you so much internet.
Thats why I can't leave you. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2006|09:48 pm] |
Thing's that are New : I live in Mt.clemens now and have for less then month.
I started college like most of you. Really busy with that stuff .
I have been more at peace with myself latly then ever. Not dealing with the B.S. fights with my step Dad or my Mother. And I'm forcing myself to strive further on my independence. Everything is Awesome. Now I just have to make sure to keep the grades stay up and see about doing more work for my uncle.
Now I'm off to write a small paper for a class and take some notes...
Hope all is well for all you people! |
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| (Time ) |
[Aug. 17th, 2006|02:01 am] |
Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.
So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again.
The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older,
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.
Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time.
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over,
Thought I'd something more to say.
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| Star date 8/13/2006 4:58 |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|04:58 am] |
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What we have learned about the Human race. They are such strange creatures indeed. They seem to have a self destructive nature. Always attacking each other emotionally and physically. But each of them is striving for the same things. A since of purpose and acceptance. They are such lost cretures with out each others presence. And the worst thing, is none of them seem to know how much they truly have in common wiht each other. Isolation is a mental realm created in the mind. They all are trapped on the same planet. No matter how far away any of them are. They still are just in a planets reach of each other. Poor humans, hopefully we can save them.
Before its to late.
"A Stranger"
Cast the calming apple
Up and over satellites
To draw out the timid wild one
To convince you it's alright
And I listen for the whisper
Of your sweet insanity while I formulate
Denials of your affect on me
You're a stranger
So what do I care
You vanish today
Not the first time I hear
All the lies
What am I to do with all this silence
Shy away, shy away phantom
Run away terrified child
Won't you move away you fucking tornado
I'm better off without you
Tearing my will down
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| The ? |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|04:01 am] |
What is love:
"The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone.
Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.
This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa.
It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them.
Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go."
One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
That word is love. -Sophocles
"nature's way of tricking people into reproducing"
"Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; never selfish, not quick to take offence. Love keeps no score of wrongs; does not gloat over another's sins, but delights in the truth. There is nothing love cannot face; there is not limit to its faith, its hope, and its endurance. In a word, there are three things that last forever: faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of them all is love."
1 Corinthians 13
The Encyclopedia Brittanica defines love as something too complicated to define.
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy has this to say about love: avoid if at all possible.
Love hurts.
"Lust is the desire for their body; love is the desire for their soul."
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|06:11 pm] |
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Wow, my face feels like its on Fire. I haven't been sun burn like this in years. Its Great! No, not really. It kinda hurts when I use facial expression. On another note had a Awesome time at Cedar Point with Kiera and went on every ride I have been a pussy about all these years. Mu'Hahaha! And Thumbs up on tomorrows plane Jumping! |
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| Sober "Tool" |
[Jul. 8th, 2006|05:38 am] |
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There's a shadow just behind me
Shrouding every step I take
Making every promise empty
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking buttler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now, the pattern called "must we"
Just because the son has come
Jesus,wont you fucking whistle ?
Something but the past and done
Jesus, wont you fucking whistle
Something but the past and done
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
And why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a centre in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary, won't you whisper?
Something but what's past and done
Mother Mary, won't you whisper?
Something but what's past and done
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
And why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
And why?
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a centre in you
I will chew it up and leave
Trust me
Trust me
Trust me
Trust me
Trust me
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start things over
And why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
And why?
I want it when I want it
I want it when I want it
I want it when I want it
I want it when I want it
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